Push Back

Tug of War

Stand firm,

Do not falter,

Stand firm,

Do not stumble,

Stand firm,

Entrench your feet.

Stand firm,

Do not fear,

Stand firm,

Do not quiver,

Stand firm,

Ready your sword.

Fight back,

Do not retreat,

Fight back,

Do not relent,

Fight back,

Win the day.

Beyond The Walls Continued

Alright, forward and onward! I discussed the church and how there is an issue especially here in America, where we stay within our own church walls and are reluctant to venture out into the world and make disciples in my post Beyond The Walls. I need to finish defining the Church by addressing what the Church truly is. Here are the points I hope to make between the two post. 

1) Tower of Babel to be used as an example of expanding the church walls, rather than expanding the church Body.

2) Define the church.

3) point out real life connections and how to remedy the issue.

4) What makes a believer? What makes a disciple? (Simon the magician)

5)  Mission minded versus number minded.

I spent more time explaining what the church is NOT supposed to be in the prior post. Here I hope to explain what we are as Church and what that entails. Scripture will be my voice here, Lord knows I’ll take some long journey to explain it in a roundabout way thousands of words later.

For just as the body is one and has many members, and all the members of the body, though many, are one body, so it is with Christ. For in one Spirit we were all baptized into one body—Jews or Greeks, slaves or free—and all were made to drink of one Spirit. – 1 Corinthians 12:12-13

Now you are the body of Christ and individually members of it. – 1 Corinthians 12:27

For as in one body we have many members, and the members do not all have the same function, so we, though many, are one body in Christ, and individually members one of another. – Romans 12:4-5

I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, eager to maintain the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to the one hope that belongs to your call— one Lord, one faith, one baptism, one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all. But grace was given to each one of us according to the measure of Christ’s gift. – Ephesians 4:1-7

And he gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the shepherds and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, – Ephesians 4:11-12

Now I rejoice in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am filling up what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions for the sake of his body, that is, the church, – Colossians 1:24

For you see, the Church is not a building, but rather each Christian makes up a member of the Body. We are the temple of God, the Holy Spirit dwells within us and by the blood of Christ we are redeemed. God does not dwell within your church building, so before you stand up at your next budget meeting and say “We must build a bigger steeple in the name of the Lord!” or “We need red carpets to represent the blood of Christ!” Check yourself and understand that God will not thank you for causing an uproar over carpets. In an instant that building could be wiped from the face of the earth, but the Body of Christ is eternal. We cannot allow ourselves to be so wrapped up in bringing people to the church building we built, rather we need to urgently take the Church to people! We each represent a part of the Church and we each hold a responsibility to carrying out the task of the Church, to make disciples.

 What is a disciple and how do we go about making them? Well first off we have to go into the word proclaiming the name of Christ to all. 

for “Whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.”

 How then will they call on Him in whom they have not believed? How will they believe in Him whom they have not heard? And how will they hear without a preacher? How will they preach unless they are sent? Just as it is written, “How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news of good things!” – Romans 10:13-15

Second, we must mentor new converts and guide them as they grow in Christ. We must care for those who are in need and not neglect our fellow brethren.

If anyone thinks himself to be religious, and yet does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this man’s religion is worthless. Pure and undefiled religion in the sight of our God and Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world. – James 1:26-27

We must also not be fooled by simply believing the power of Christ and forsaking the name of Christ. In Acts, we encounter a man who performs magic and has amazed many. When Philip came to his region to preach he was amazed by the power Philip had through the power of the Spirit. It is said

“Even Simon himself believed, and after being baptized he continued with Philip. And seeing signs and great miracles performed, he was amazed” Acts 8:13

Now when Simon saw that the Spirit was given through the laying on of the apostles’ hands, he offered them money, saying, “Give me this power also, so that anyone on whom I lay my hands may receive the Holy Spirit.” But Peter said to him, “May your silver perish with you, because you thought you could obtain the gift of God with money! You have neither part nor lot in this matter, for your heart is not right before God. Repent, therefore, of this wickedness of yours, and pray to the Lord that, if possible, the intent of your heart may be forgiven you. For I see that you are in the gall of bitterness and in the bond of iniquity.” And Simon answered, “Pray for me to the Lord, that nothing of what you have said may come upon me.” Acts 8:18-24

For whatever reason, we aren’t told what became of Simon, but we can see his errors. In verse thirteen he was baptized by water and followed Philip amazed by his power. In the verses to come Peter and John come through the same region and pray for the people to be baptized in the Holy Spirit. When Simon saw that the same power that Philip had could be bestowed on others, he tried bribing Peter for the Holy Spirit. Peter quickly corrected him and made it clear that the Spirit will not enter him due to his heart and intent, by prayer and repentance he could be redeemed. Simon had all the belief in the world that the power of Christ was real, but he did not seek to serve the Lord, he wanted to use that power to continue his magic. His request to Peter in the end, hmm perhaps that was his final request and then he went away. Regardless of what became of him, he believed for all of the wrong reasons. Much like those who seek and expect blessings from God. Simon was a believer, but not a Disciple. Even the Demons believe in the power of Christ and acknowledge His sovereignty, but they serve a different master.

To become a disciple goes beyond belief in power, it’s through a repentant heart and by prayer to God directly to forgive you of your transgressions. The Spirit knows your heart, and He will not enter a person who is unwilling to become a new creation in Christ.

Brethren, my heart’s desire and my prayer to God for them is for their salvation. For I testify about them that they have a zeal for God, but not in accordance with knowledge. For not knowing about God’s righteousness and seeking to establish their own, they did not subject themselves to the righteousness of God. For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes. – Romans 10:1-4

You can’t earn or buy your salvation. No number of good deeds will bring about a new creation with a new purpose and desire. If being good was the requirement for salvation, then we are all utterly doomed.

This brings me to my final point on my list, being mission minded. As stated before by Paul, how can they believe if they do not hear? How will they hear if no one is sent? The Church MUST wake up to this reality. Do you know where South Korea sends most of their missionaries? It’s here! In the united States, where we boast being a “Christian Nation”. I say “Christian Nation” because I am not convinced that our population is a majority Christian, neither are South Koreans convinced of it it seems. Believing God exists does not make you a Christian, and that’s how a lot of people answer those polls. We must break through our walls and reignite the flames to spread the gospel like wildfire. If we want to see our congregations grow, then we must first realize our first priority. At home and abroad we must preach the Word of Christ. By our own gifts and talents bestowed by God and the Holy Spirit we must each act accordingly to our part of the Body and together the Body of Christ can truly reach all the nations of the world! We must break down the walls we’ve created for ourselves and go beyond the church building and truly begin building the Church of God.

May the Lord Bless us and keep us as we venture into this endeavor.



Beyond The Walls

Imagine if you will, a great forest fire raging through the landscape. The fire blazes through everything it comes across until suddenly, it reaches a great stone wall. The fire rages for as long as it can, but the wall prevents it from going any further. The fire calms and the flames die down to burning embers, the raging fire has run out of fuel.

Now, how can this imagery be applied to help set a clear picture of a Christian and more importantly, the Church? What I hope the imagery assists the reader with is the fire that rages in our own soul for Christ. Each individual that is Baptized in the Holy Spirit is alight with passion for doing the Lord’s will and carrying out the Great Commission…right? What does it mean to be alight for the Lord? What would that look like for the Church? What is the Church and what is our purpose, our goal, our calling? I hope to answer these questions and more. I pray that I can bring to light walls that are preventing you from raging forward for Christ and together we can go beyond the walls!

To define the church, we need to first look at what Jesus said was our mission, our goal and our calling. more commonly known as The Great Commission.

Now the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain to which Jesus had directed them. And when they saw him they worshiped him, but some doubted. And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” – Matthew 28:16-20

“Go therefore”, Jesus commands us to GO out into the world and make disciples of all nations. That is singly the most important purpose or mission of the Church. Other aspects that are very important to observe is fellowship with one another. We are called to be as one Body, one people united for Christ. Accountability, teaching and being taught, mentoring and being mentored. All of these are very important aspects of the Church, but they still don’t line up with what we are called to DO. We are called to go beyond the walls of the Church and to make disciples among the nations. Before I go further into what going beyond the walls would look like, let me first point to what remaining in our walls would be like.

Genesis chapter eleven, The Tower of Babel, the birthplace of languages. Before mankind was scattered by force, there was one universal language. The people reasoned with one another to remain in one location and to build a city and tower in order to build a name for themselves. They set out with a mission that God had not commanded them to do. In truth, God had commanded them to go into all of the world and to be fruitful and multiply. In Genesis chapter nine we see God speaking to Noah. 

And God blessed Noah and his sons and said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth.” – 9:1 

and again in verse seven.

And you, be fruitful and multiply, increase greatly on the earth and multiply in it.”

The people did not obey, they remained in their walls and built great wonders instead of going into the world as commanded.

Tower of Babel

 Now the whole earth had one language and the same words. And as people migrated from the east, they found a plain in the land of Shinar and settled there. And they said to one another, “Come, let us make bricks, and burn them thoroughly.” And they had brick for stone, and bitumen for mortar. Then they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city and a tower with its top in the heavens, and let us make a name for ourselves, lest we be dispersed over the face of the whole earth. And the Lord came down to see the city and the tower, which the children of man had built. And the Lord said, “Behold, they are one people, and they have all one language, and this is only the beginning of what they will do. And nothing that they propose to do will now be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and there confuse their language, so that they may not understand one another’s speech.” So the Lord dispersed them from there over the face of all the earth, and they left off building the city. Therefore its name was called Babel, because there the Lord confused the language of all the earth. And from there the Lord dispersed them over the face of all the earth. – Genesis 11:1-9

What then was the issue of building a city and making a name for themselves? What’s the big deal? Applying that to the modern Church, we can see modern correlations as to why that is wrong.  Notice in verse four how they even acknowledge that they do not wish to do as commanded, they have no intentions of going out into the world. They are more concerned with making a grand city and a tower reaching the Heavens. They have set out to make a name for themselves, their name and their fame outweighed the Lord’s command in their minds. 

You may see this amongst your own congregation, where the heated debates revolve around church projects and church building renovations and expansions. Now, if your congregation is fighting for a seat and people are standing in the halls for service, then expansion of the building is needed of course, but that’s rarely the case. More often we see congregations argue and even split over trivial matters, such as the color of the carpet, or the color of the paint used on the walls. Have we allowed the Church to forget its true purpose and calling? Are we more concerned with expanding the walls of the church than we are expanding the Body of Christ? As individuals we each must evaluate what it is we are fighting to achieve. Is it to bring others outside of Christ to Him and to make disciples or are we more concerned with numbers and how large we can grow a single congregation in a single city? God calls us to reach our local communities, there is no doubt of that. However, if we aren’t willing to go beyond our own cities to teach others of Christ, then how do we expect the locals to be attracted to our faith? It isn’t gimmicks (door prizes, food, gift bags etc.) and huge auditoriums that we need to bring people into the church. The Word of God alone is what is needed to bring people into the true Church, the Body of Christ. Scripture tells us that it is through the power of the Holy Spirit that someone comes to know Christ. I can guarantee you that no single person has come to Christ because their local church was equipped with hundreds of stage lights, fog machines, and a professional band. It was because of the Word of God and the power of the Holy Spirit. Testimonies are filled with how Christ has saved them from their former selves. Through Christ alone are they saved, it is not due to a single pastor, a single worship leader, or any other. Although those may be the means by which people heard the Words of God or the opportunity the Holy Spirit took to stir people’s souls, it is not by their power that Christ was made a part of people’s lives.

In essence, my point is that we cannot allow the Body of Christ to abandon its true calling to chase after numbers in our pews and in the tithe plate (note: Tithing is a command, not a suggestion). How we spend our resources and how we minister to the congregation is vital to the health of the Church. A certain church comes to my mind that is well known, but widely unpopular in the Christian realm. Pandering to the world and taking tactics that water down the scriptures to limit sermons on Hell and focusing heavily on the blessings of God. This church has grown to be massive and takes in billions of dollars a year, which a vast majority goes right back into maintaining and expanding the building. I am sure that there are true believers in that particular congregation, however, when the pastor’s main focus is to keep the people coming and has painted God as a genie that will bless your life immensely if you continue attending church, then there are major theological issues involved. As humans, we would be absolute fools if we think God owes us anything. Does God bless His children? Of course He does! Out of love He blesses us! All that’s needed to destroy this teaching that God blesses us because we have been good is the story of Job. Having done nothing wrong, Job is tormented by Satan, yet he remains faithful and accomplishes the task God had set before him. He is humbled in the end after He questioned God, but that story alone makes it clear that we are expected to remain faithful to God even if worldly blessings aren’t given in return. He sent His Son to die on the cross for our sake! Who are we to demand more out of Him? God is not someone you barter with, you do not trade goods and services, you serve Him because He is the redeemer of your soul and your Heavenly Father.

Oh boy, I feel like I’m all over the place and I’m long-winded. For the sake of length I think I’ll split this into two parts. Below are some notes and I would like to ask that you please leave a comment letting me know if I have accomplished hitting all of my points effectively. I tend to doubt myself and feel like I’m just rambling nonsense.


Quick notes to return to later:

1) Tower of Babel to be used as an example of expanding the church walls, rather than expanding the church Body.

2) Define the church.

3) point out real life connections and how to remedy the issue.

4) What makes a believer? What makes a disciple? (Simon the magician)

5)  Mission minded versus number minded.

The Tormenting Storm

One thing about blogging, is that a traditional blog is about the personal life of the writer. Often times with the audience in mind, there is a lesson for those who read and follow the bloggers writings. However, being a blogger myself and having read and followed other people’s blogs, it is just as much a lesson for ourselves as it is for the reader. Now, if you’ve read my past writings, then you know that I do not tend to follow a traditional blog, nor do I make it obvious on what my struggles are. I like to mingle them into analogies and creative imagery. With that said, I feel it is prudent to express some of my hardships following my typical pattern. It’s how I best express myself, and I feel that writing is fully developed from when it’s straight from the heart. My early writing is from my head, and it’s extremely boring, but educational! Haha

 In my life, I have been tempted and tried by tribulation and affliction on many different matters. Deep depression in my life leading up to my salvation was one such trial. My depression lead me down paths that tried to suppress the pain and find a way out of my situation. Most roads I decided to take have since been closed off, however, there is one road that has persistently stuck around in my life. Apostle Paul describes such sins as a thorn in the side. A sin that persist and keeps popping its ugly head up. One of my closest friends describes it as a tar pit. Sticky and hard to escape from, it takes hold of you and you must fight your way out. I like that analogy, I was going to take the chain and steel ball approach. Haha

Sticking with that analogy – sticking 😉 – I hope to encourage those of you that have found themselves in their own tar pit. Take heart! you are not alone in your fight. I have fought long and hard (well, I’ve been fighting hard now, not in the past.) with this sin. Even while being bogged down in the pit, I found myself behaving as a Christian should in most other aspects. Lying has never really been a problem for me, slander and gossip don’t rule my life, I keep a tight leash on my tongue, I do alright. Except for this one persistent sin, I sunk deep into the pit of lust. I used all of the tactics of Satan to make myself feel better about it too. I’m sure this will sound familiar, “Everyone does it, especially us guys.” “I do well everywhere else, I can slip up here.” “Just this once.” Etc. etc. etc. 

The thing about lust is this, it alters your outlook on women. (or men for the ladies) Suddenly, the way a women should be viewed with honor and respect is replaced with lustful thought, desires and actions. It morphs God’s design of love and blemishes His design and purpose of sex. God’s designs are perfect and intentional. The longing of another person of the opposite sex is natural and intended to create a beautiful picture of God’s love for us. It is a sad thing when we allow lust to taint this precious gift from God.

Understand this aspect if nothing else, God designed sex, love, our anatomy, the whole nine yards. To have a desire for someone is not the same as lusting after them. God intends for us to have a drive for love, He intends for us to have desire, (including sex) but the way we view His design is what defines right from wrong. We are not unintelligent, we all know what defines lustfulness from intentional love, so I’m not going to spell it out for you.

Returning to the analogy, I stated above that I sunk deep into lust and have been fighting hard to escape. I still find myself struggling from time to time, but something that used to rule my life has been reduced to a uncommon faltering. I stumble and fall as we all do, but not near as much as I once did. I am still healing from my short comings, I think that is one reason I write about love so much in my other post. I have to remind myself of what true love looks like, untint my mind, and view love and sex from God’s eyes and not from this corrupt worldview. I have to fight all the way through and finish the struggle by getting my feet out of the tar and into God’s Grace.

I had completed this post with a different thought process in the past, so this is a revamping of the old post. From here on it’s me describing life winning major battles against my tar pit. I was using a storm as my original analogy though, it still applies. Entering ninth grade I joined Cross-Country and my life changed for the better. Then in tenth grade I became convinced it was time to start dating, which made me act like a moron around the ladies.

Silly ol’ Travis, women are for men!

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I’m a man now! my convictions then may be more accurate now. HAHA




For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. – Romans 8:38-3

Take heart, no sin will ever be capable of separating you from the love of the Father! No matter how stuck you may be, God is merciful and He shall never abandon you!

Trouble and anguish have come upon me,

Yet Your commandments are my delight. – Psalm 119:143 

Delight in the LORD, He is a unmovable rock that does not shift like the shadows. He is forever good, forever pure and forever Holy. Rest in His embrace.

 With my Cross-Country family at school I had a new-found happiness! I no longer relied on my sins to falsely supply my needs. I still remember one of my friends on the team asking “Travis, why do you ALWAYS smile? Even in the hallway you grin and there is no reason to.” It’s true, I would walk the halls with a smile plastered to my face. Even when I wasn’t talking or walking with anyone. They couldn’t find a reason for my smile, but I had every reason to be immersed with happiness! It was the first time in a very long time that I felt going a day without sin was possible. My mind and body were healing after a long fought war, a war I realized wasn’t quite over yet. Everyday after school and before practice I stayed in the library and read my Bible. This Bible I later donated to the school and it’s still there. I’m the only one who has checked it out and it is worn out! Not with ill-treatment, but with so much usage! I completed the entire new testament before the season’s end and knocked out a good chunk of the Old. If I had to choose a time that I was the most godly in my life, it would be that year, my freshman year. That year, I was so highly immersed in the Word that God was at the forefront of my mind almost constantly. In the mornings I prayed, the afternoons I read, the evenings I reflected. Growing and learning I finally understood what the armor of God was and I now had a firm grasp of the Sword of the Spirit! It still shocks me when I read my yearbook and have multiple people say that my faith inspires them. I guess it surprises me because I know my struggles, I know what my storm is and what lies ahead. It is always encouraging to me to hear such things. It lets me know I’m doing something right.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might. Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. Ephesians 6:10-17

Although this storm is not as large of a threat as it once was, I must remain vigilant and never cease my growth in Christ. To sheath my sword would mean defeat in the face of the storm. I still linger in the eye, the storm remains and the torments come. This is, as Paul describes it, my thorn in my side. I know that someday I will face this storm again, and when this day comes I have no intentions of losing. I will break through this wall once more, but this time I will not be trapped within the eye. I will emerge on the other end having conquered the tormenting storm that controls the lives of millions. I have discovered, the only way to overcome a storm such as this, one that controls thoughts and dictates actions, is to be immersed in Heavenly thought. Recall the hymn “Turn your eyes upon Jesus” place a special focus on this stanza. 

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

How true this is! The world around you fades with its temptations and taunts when your mind is focused squarely on Christ thy Rock! My foundation, my fortress be! Heavenly thought leads to Heavenly action. A Christ centered mind leads to a Christ centered life! A much more happy and pleasant life to be sure! Oh how I love Him! The savior of my life and soul! Always remember, that with Christ, all things are possible. With the Holy Spirit dwelling within, any storm, no matter how powerful, can and will be defeated.

No temptation has overtaken you but such as is common to man; and God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will provide the way of escape also, so that you will be able to endure it. – 1 Corinthians 10:13 

I never quite know how my blogs will turn out. I tried making this one a bit more personable. The ones where I am tormented in Spirit tend to be filled with raw emotion and heartache. As I write this however, I feel encouraged, renewed even. Remembering that I have stood firm against this storm many times before, I am confident that with some help, I can rid myself of this storm. May the Spirit lead and guide me and all of those who fight the good fight. God bless you my friends, I appreciate all of you who pour into my life more than you may realize.

Blessed is a man who perseveres under trial; for once he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him. Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am being tempted by God”; for God cannot be tempted by evil, and He Himself does not tempt anyone. But each one is tempted when he is carried away and enticed by his own lust. Then when lust has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and when sin is accomplished, it brings forth death. Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren. Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow. In the exercise of His will He brought us forth by the word of truth, so that we would be a kind of first fruits among His creatures. James 1:12-18


10% Heart

I knew I should’ve made a post earlier this week to lead up to what I’m about to write about. Time is fleeting however, so I’ll work with what I’ve got and take a wide curve from my normal post. Today I raced in my second collegiate 8K race (4.9Mi.) and came in 118th place with a time of 30:42. With that time I PR’d (Personal Record) by about a minute. Woo! Way to go Travis! You PR’d! Yeah, yeah…I know I should be proud of that, but I’m still frustrated that I’m placing in the triple digits! Sure, I’ve improved timewise, but I’m still lingering in the back of the pack catching only the stragglers that exhausted themselves in the beginning of the race. It seemed like with each person I caught, three more would pass. I’m a decent runner, mediocre, run of the mill…I’m tired of that! I don’t expect to be the best, but I don’t accept my current standing as success. I’m slogging my way through the races and prove I can finish strong with a standard time for the standard runner. I’m a collegiate athlete though! It’s about time I race like one!

Posing for Herb

I mean, look at that! Does that look like the face of a collegiate runner to you?

In my high school days, Coach Hoover, who means so much to me told me once that running is 90% physical and 10% heart. He said “When your body is shutting down and you don’t feel that it can bring you to the finish, then you have your heart finish for you. Running is 90% physical, when that fails, the last 10% is all on your heart.” Hmm, perhaps not a direct quote, but the point is, when your lungs seem like they’re overloaded, your thighs are begging to feel relief, and your mind is fighting your body, you have to rely on your heart to push down those walls and get you to that finish.

Miller Landing 8K

My second high school 5k that I ran, I remember coach coming alongside me (Coach would run the J.V. races with us) and saying that I needed to move up. He said I was sandbagging and needed to push myself. For the remainder of the race, he ran behind me, and each time I would slow down, he would shout “TRAVIS!” I quickly responded by picking up the pace. Haha That’s how it went, he would say encouragements as we went, him, another teammate of mine and myself. We were truckin’ along as he gave his famous Hoover talks. When the last mile mark hit he told me to leave him and that’s when he told me that my heart is what will guide me to that finish mark. “Running is 90% physical Travis, 10% is heart. Your legs will carry you, so long as you have the heart to push on!” I listened and I left coach and my teammate ending the race with a four minute PR! (My first race being a 29:33, but let’s forget about that) I continued to progress with each race, always keeping in mind that it’s 10% heart. I dropped time by huge chunks being two minutes, minute and a half PR’s up until I hit my runner’s wall. The runner’s wall is where you start to plateau and you don’t see a lot of improvement, it’s expected. I started to average twenty-one minute 5k’s and finished my first season with a 21:14.

2nd at Freedom run

Jumping back to present day, I was so ready to break down my wall and defeat this beast! (8k) I was ridiculously nervous during the days leading up to it and before the start I was still anxious. I took out at a hard pace, but not unreasonable for the first half mile. Looked pretty good, until all around me people just kept passing. I was quickly fading, and try as I might, I knew I could not hold their pace. Thus, begins the mental warfare, mind and body at odds, who prevailed? Mind…definitely mind. I pulled back and quickly lost my position. Maintaining a comfortable pace essentially means you just forfeited the race and you’ll settle to simply finish. I wouldn’t say I got to that point, I knew I was going to have to hurt and hurt bad if I wanted to truly compete. For the first two miles I glided along at a pace I was comfortable with, then I decided to race. By then though, it’s too late, the leaders have been racing since the gun sounded and here I am two miles into it saying “Alright! Who’s ready to challenge THIS guy?!” I do this weird snapping thing with my fingers and take off regaining a hard pace making ground on my fellow stragglers. Then I falter…Then I rebound! Then I falter. Back and forth I go trying to muster the courage to truly hurt and go beyond my perceived limits. I did manage to let out a few of my famous Travis “screams”, partly due to mistaking the finish to be a mile and half before it actually came. This mistake did bring me to a point where I was picking up stride and turn-over, which allowed me to make the true finish more competitive.


Look at that finish! Close call there, with only a two second lead!

The life of a runner is frustrating to be sure. When you have your victories though, the rewards are worth all of the pain and frustration you felt to achieve that victory. When you have your coach smile at you and say “Well good deal!” joy overwhelms you. Breaking down your own barriers and pushing yourself to limits you never thought possible, brings about such a high sense of accomplishment. You break down that wall and you reach that goal and and you go after the next goal. Progressing with determination and vigor, reach that goal, you never thought possible.

The face of pain

Now that! That is the face of a determined runner! A runner who is facing pain and pushing through it. I just have to bring him back!


Note- If you haven’t read my other post talking about Coach Hoover, please take the time to do so. start first with Shattered followed by Take Comfort.

Precious Jewels

Here of late, love has been the topic on my mind. How to understand it, how to obtain it, how to grow in it are all things consuming my mind. I’ve been listening to pastors and teachers, reading my Bible and have been in prayer. Love is something I so deeply desire, yet I’m unconvinced I fully grasp it. To express genuine love towards someone and to have that same love expressed towards you. What does that look like…feel like?

I am convinced, that love should erupt the soul with life! Inexpressible excitement should overwhelm someone as they speak of the one they love with others. All the more should the soul rejoice in their presence. Someone who is precious to you should do nothing less to your soul. Whomever is precious to you deserves to be appreciated, valued without price, and cause a total change in your Spirit when you meet. Eyes gleam brightly, smiles cease to fade, and to join hands ignites the body. Your soul should be as a child. Abounding in absolute and pure joy! The two should grow together, strengthening one another and if the Lord should have it, become as one.

One of my favorite quotes comes from the Hunchback of Notre Dame by Victor Hugo.

“Do you know what friendship is?” he asked.
“Yes,” replied the gypsy; “it is to be brother and sister; two souls which touch without mingling, two fingers on one hand.”
‘And love?’ pursued Gringoire.
‘Oh! love!’ said she, and her voice trembled, and her eye beamed. ‘That is to be two and to be but one. A man and a woman mingled into one angel. It is heaven.” 

  Many see this as a childish view of love, but how right Esmeralda is in the story! To grow together until the two are as one soul is exactly what God had intended for us. 

Some Pharisees came to Jesus, testing Him and asking, “Is it lawful for a man to divorce his wife for any reason at all?” And He answered and said, “Have you not read that He who created them from the beginning made them male and female, and said, For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh?” So they are no longer two, but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate.”

Seeing that many of us will one day be joined together with another, there needs to be an overpowering desire to protect what is precious. In Song of Solomon the brothers of Solomon’s wife say this while discussing what to do concerning their younger sister. (About age 11 or 12 as indicated by “she has no breasts”.)

We have a little sister,
    and she has no breasts.
What shall we do for our sister
    on the day when she is spoken for?
 If she is a wall,
    we will build on her a battlement of silver,
but if she is a door,
    we will enclose her with boards of cedar. – Song Of Solomon 8:8-9

The brothers are determined to protect their sister and will keep her from men who would take as they please and leave. Thieves in the night more or less. Men with no honor in them, men who are driven by passion, convincing the easily swayed that the passion they feel is Love. Willing to take and destroy what is precious to others is the most dishonorable act I can think of.

Consider Jewels, Precious stones, Gold and Silver. All are pleasing to the eyes and valuable. Locked away in vaults, glass casings and alarms to alert of attempted thievery. Vaults and policemen are there to protect what is precious and valuable. How much more is your value? Do not allow men to rob you, be a wall and know without a doubt that you are beautiful, valuable and precious. Within the castle walls dwell treasures that are desirable by all. Fend off the thieves and those with no honor. Grant the key to the castle defenses to only those of honor, valor and respect. Someone who does not wish to steal the treasures within, but to know, grow and protect what is precious. YOU are the treasures kept behind the wall. For a man to desire to know you, grow with you and to protect you is an honorable thing.  It should be a man’s desire to show compassion towards you, kindness towards you and to be the epitome of what genuine love is. Paul describes what genuine love looks like in 1 Corinthians 13:4-7  Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” Furthermore, Jesus speaks of the greatest love one can demonstrate.  “This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.” John 15:12-13  Love should see no limit. Not even death should keep you from protecting the one you love. To lay down your own life for the sake of another is most admirable indeed. A true act of valor, to preserve someone who is more precious in your eyes than your own life. Just as Jesus laid down His life for our sake; we are precious in the sight of God, never forget this fact.

Consider the diamond also, the symbol of love and marriage. The strongest precious stone known to man, unbreakable as it is, so also should love be for one another. Ever growing, ever strengthening, love sees no limits. A foundation as strong as the immovable mountains, as staggering as the most grand of structures and an aura of pure genuine love. The love between two souls should be so immensely compelling that witnesses of such a strong love have their own souls stirred with emotion. “Who is that coming up from the wilderness, leaning on her beloved?” Song Of Solomon 8:5 These are the witnesses of Solomon and his wife returning from their time spent together. Just the two of them, furthering their love for one another. These witnesses know who they are, yet when they return, their love has grown so much greater that they do not recognize them. 

His left hand is under my head,
    and his right hand embraces me!
 I adjure you, O daughters of Jerusalem,
    that you not stir up or awaken love
    until it pleases. – Song Of Solomon 8:3-4

Tenderly he loves her, he desires to know her and she desires to know him. Awaken love when the time is right, when love is ripe and passion is not the dominate force. Desire for a soul that is immersed in immense love. Love that will set your spirit ablaze and bare witness to all a pure and genuine love, granted by God above.

 Praise God our Father! The ability to love so deeply is a marvelous gift. Do not neglect this blessing, love one another just as our Father has loved us. Develop such deep love for your loved ones that Christ shines through and may all who bear witness to your love be awestruck by so great a love. 

* I’m adding this in after five months from the initial post. I realized a really good passage that ties in well is Proverbs chapter thirty-one, where we find the iconic proverbs thirty-one woman.

10 An excellent wife, who can find?
For her worth is far above jewels.
11 The heart of her husband trusts in her,
And he will have no lack of gain.
12 She does him good and not evil
All the days of her life.
13 She looks for wool and flax
And works with her hands in delight.
14 She is like merchant ships;
She brings her food from afar.
15 She rises also while it is still night
And gives food to her household
And portions to her maidens.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
From her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She girds herself with strength
And makes her arms strong.
18 She senses that her gain is good;
Her lamp does not go out at night.
19 She stretches out her hands to the distaff,
And her hands grasp the spindle.
20 She extends her hand to the poor,
And she stretches out her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household,
For all her household are clothed with scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for herself;
Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates,
When he sits among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
And supplies belts to the tradesmen.
25 Strength and dignity are her clothing,
And she smiles at the future.
26 She opens her mouth in wisdom,
And the teaching of kindness is on her tongue.
27 She looks well to the ways of her household,
And does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children rise up and bless her;
Her husband also, and he praises her, saying:
29 “Many daughters have done nobly,
But you excel them all.”
30 Charm is deceitful and beauty is vain,
But a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised.
31 Give her the product of her hands,
And let her works praise her in the gates. – Proverbs 31:10-31 (NASB)

Who can find a wife of noble character?
For her value is far more than rubies. – verse ten (New English Translation NET)

Finding a wife of noble character is the challenge and the goal. In no way is it easy, especially since a women of noble character won’t settle for a man with poor character. A dishonorable man will find no favor with such a woman, and for good reason. As men, we ourselves have to conduct our daily lives with honor and valor. This woman here is praised by all, especially by her husband. Are we living lives that are worthy to be called honorable? Lives were women can look at us and see honorable men, valiant men, Godly men? Men who would not bring shame upon others in their lives, but rather praise. Can we live lives that people appreciate and truly find our character a blessing? If we cannot, then we do not deserve any such woman.

In order to love the Lord fully, you must love your wife fully. For That is what the Lord finds favorable and good. To love your wife partially, is to love the Lord partially.